Welcome to medical school — Congratulations! You have worked, sacrificed, waited for this moment for many long years, have left blood, sweat, tears along the tracks of your life marathon. This is the first checkpoint in your journey. You’ve made it. Your loved ones are right here cheering your accomplishments, there are many. That new, freshly pressed, bright white coat makes you look like an absolute stud. It feels incredible. You are incredible. You have chosen a path of remarkable science and humbling servitude. Breathe the sigh of relief that you now have two feet in the front door.
Welcome to the rest of your life.
You have no idea what you got yourself into.
For many of you behind the bubbling excitement lies fear. For some of you somehow you have already convinced yourself that perhaps you are not ready for this, aren’t meant for this, this must be one huge mistake you’ve managed to stumble your way through. Imposter syndrome has found its ways through the cracks of your door and lingers in the dark corners of your desk. You have already stared down the mountain that is medical information, because there is no grace period, and have wondered how you will ever be able to master all this information. I am here to be honest with you. There will be many hours spent studying, sleepless nights, unending phone calls to mom, a couple of breakdowns, half your tuition spent on coffee with x amount of espresso shots. There will be frustration, perhaps depression, struggle, failure. There will be many moments of questioning, of feelings of unbearable expectations and standards. You will see those around you who have chosen not to pursue a medical degree moving on with their lives and you will feel stagnant. You will feel alone.
I am here to validate you: it is okay to feel all these things. It is okay to sometimes not be okay. Realize though, you are never alone. You have an incredible community behind you who have suffered the same, who are ready with an extended hand to provide you the support you need. Medicine is a team sport, and we continue to progress by standing on the shoulders of the giants before us. Please never hesitate to reach out.
You will be learning some of the most profound knowledge the human race has been able to discover, contribute to an ever-evolving field dedicated to helping humanity. In cadaver lab you will lift lungs that once gave air, hold a heart that beat more times than seconds you’ve walked this earth, admire gyrus of the brain, become aware of your own neurons firing, and wonder to yourself the memories held within the folds of the person who donated their body for your learning. You will be given instruments that can hear a broken heart, can peak through the windows to the soul, can gaze upon vibrating drums, can test the spine that runs along our backs, the tracts that run to our brains. You will take histories and be granted information only few know and will form bonds that speaks of lifetimes, starting with a handshake, sometimes ending with hugs. You will offer tissues when tears come-and they will come-and feel awkward with silence and not know what to say, but you will learn that your presence is enough. Your humanity is enough. You will acquire more information than you ever have in the shortest amount of time you have ever been given. When you realize it, you will marvel at the capacity of your phenomenal mind.
These next four years will undoubtably be, simultaneously, the most difficult and the most rewarding years of your life thus far. When the difficult comes, remember you are here because you are worthy, because someone has entrusted that one day you will be capable of taking care of the world that walks through your front door. You will internalize the hippocratic oath we all take-do no harm. You will be caring, kind, empathetic to those who are going through the worst days of their lives, and you will do so by carrying burdens on your shoulder only few in the world are permitted to carry. You will do so with knowledge, with grace, with humility.
It won’t ever get easier than this moment, but trust me when I say you get stronger. Everyday you carry a little more than you ever imagine you could and realize you are capable. You pick up on things. You learn what works for you, what doesn’t. Failures keep coming (they don’t ever stop) but you keep standing. You keep moving. It doesn’t get easier, but your resilience will shock you.
At the end of all this, you will cross that stage. You will get your degree. You will join the ranks of medical greatness. You will continue your journey onto a new chapter.
Until then, remember to take deep breaths. Live a moment at a time. The days are long and the years are short. Don’t forget to enjoy them. Don’t forget to appreciate every single day you are living this honor and privilege. I’ll be right here, witnessing the amazing journey you’re about to embark on.
With Open Arms,